Gratitude

Sorry it's been a long time since I wrote anything. I just got back from my trip to France. I know everyone dreaded it and was worried about me. I think this was an entirely reasonable and logical feeling. To be completely honest, I dreaded it too. I am very happy to have made it through without any problems. It was a big week. While we took several precautions to minimize potential problems, I still had to run a gauntlet of things that have caused me problems, including unlimited access to alcohol in the airport, booze on the plane, going through a bar to check in to the hotel, two dinners with an hour of drinks before any food was served, finding out I was getting a new boss and all the uncertainty that went with it, a big well-stocked mini-bar in my last hotel room, the airport again, and home. While that sequence of situations would have probably landed me in prison in the past, I can very honestly say it was absolutely no problem for me. I have given this over to God and I don't try to control it. I'm on 15 days sober and loving every second of it. I think my big challenge at this point is to continue to grow and turn more and more of my life over to God. I'm clean, happy, and looking forward to vacation with everyone. More than anything, I'm looking forward to thinking about other people instead of thinking about myself all the time.