My Higher Power

I had a 60 minute orientation with my IOP tonight. The presenter was a very sassy Puerto Rican lady named Theresa. She presented the basic recovery process steps and the trait gift we get from each step. 1.Recognizing you have a problem (=Honesty), 2.admitting you can't fix the problem (=Integrity), 3.realizing only God can solve your problem (=faith), and 4.admitting what we are responsible for (=courage). I've had trouble at all these steps,but my biggest issue was that I was harboring a secret belief that I could actually manage this on my own. Perhaps I needed a little help, but that was all. After all, I'm a problem solver. It's what I do for a living. My family comes to me with all kinds of problems on a regular basis. But I had to admit (finally) this was a problem I couldn't solve. She said some people don't like to talk about God in these steps so they say "Higher Power" instead. She said when she came to step 3, she already knew her Higher Power. It was alcohol. Her God was alcohol. She'd do anything for it. She'd sacrifice her safety, her family, her job... all for alcohol. It's clear that alcohol was in charge. I said it sounded like a cult- you give up everything for your master and get nothing in return. I can say her experience was the same as mine. The Bible talks a lot about worshipping false gods. I always thought this meant statues and idols, but for me my false god, my Higher Power, was alcohol. It was Friday last when I surrendered control and put God in place as my God again.