Mondays

It's been a good Monday, the weekend was nice and Father's Day (while too short) was really nice. I appreciated all the cool gifts and I really hope I do better as a Father this year. One bad thing about Monday can be AA. AA meetings on Monday can be a little rough. People tend to have a hard time on weekends. Meetings on Thursday and Friday can be pretty jovial. Monday tends to be pretty subdued. Right now, I'm working on the second part of my inventory (step #4). You would all think the first draft was funny because it includes heights, rats, and snakes. I don't think it will be too hard to do- a lot of just an extension of the first part of my inventory. The whole process is very helpful. For example, I have a fear of being isolated and alone. There's nothing to do about that right now. I have a job in South Carolina and my family is in Kentucky or Pennsylvania. I realize now this had been a dark cloud following me around. Recognizing it is one of my fears (something I hate) helps me to recognize it and then deal with it. I don't know if that makes any sense, but learning to be honest with yourself about what bothers you is the first and biggest step in overcoming it. It doesn't make everything bad disappear, but it does make it so you can deal with it--- which is much better than acting like it doesn't exist.