Rough start

Today got off to a rough start. I suppose this was due to several reasons. First, my boss's visit was over and there's a natural letdown that goes along with that. Second, I knew I had of bunch of work to catch up since he had taken all of my time while he was here. Third, and most importantly of all, I had a growing realization that I needed to get more deeply involved in AA. This means going even deeper into the steps than I had, and beginning service work. This service work ranges from helping to clean up after the meetings to going to prisons and helping to lead AA groups. I had visited the Juvenile facility in Goshen years ago and it scared the crap out of me. I'm not eager to see the adult version of these people in a prison environment. On the other hand, I've learned several of my friends in AA did time in prison and I can accept them without reservation. I called my sponsor, Joe, about this and he put me to work on the next part of step #4, which is listing and dealing with all my fears (being alone will be #1, followed by heights and snakes!). We'll talk about service and more details of things tonight. I'm glad to have Joe to work with. He doesn't take any crap, but he's very nice. Life is a surprise. I never thought I'd be in AA, and certainly never thought my mentor would be an old bald guy from upstate South Carolina.